heard mass yesterday with Jet :( after almost 4 weeks of not seeing each other, ewan, having him around turned out to be VERY AWKWARD :(

***he just txted me. nagyayayang lumabas. haha, natawa akoooo =)) ANYWAY,

we were very silent yesterday. ang uncomfortable ng feeling. huhu :( di ako makarespond sa misa. ni hindi ko nga ata naintidihan yung homily eh. *sigh*, ayoko ng ganung feeling. sobrang ayoko. our friend, Janine, even told us na parang hindi 'kami' with the way we (or I?) act. tsk.

yesterday i told him na since antagal na naming hindi nagco2mmunicate, parang nasasanay na rin ako. then he went crazy, if you know what i mean. i told him na he can't blame me. actually, every night, i wallow in sorrows kasi he doesn't talk to me. i just don't know why.

as much as possible, i dont want to have the desperate image between the two of us. pero mehn, mahirap. in a situation like that, i can't help but to feel paranoid. uber paranoid.

if you're a guy, could you please explain to me why he acts like that? did his ego took its toll on him? ewan. i just really can't understand :(

if you're a girl, di ba i have a point naman? what should i do then? hindi ko naman pwedeng sabihin "Hoy Jet, ba't ngayon mo lang ako kinausap, ha? ha? ha?! alam mo bang napapraning na'ko kakaisip kung bakit naging silent ka?! YOU'RE SO EFFIN' INCONSIDERATE!!! " i'm sure he has his reasons pero..

(ps, whenever he talks about sweet stuff like miss and love you, sometimes i feel numb about it. and it hurts me. just so you know)

***speaking of reasons, he just txted me. hindi daw niya pinapaloadan yung globe niya kasi poverty siya lately but he's using his sun. bullcrap. now, i really can't understand. ha ha ha.

ewan. help. :(

***on the lighter side of things, i had my hair cut last night. super short na siya. sabi nila when somebody decides to have a drastic change of hair style, kunwari, from uber long hair to super short hair, may problem daw yung person na yun tapos yung pinagupit na hair daw yung parang "mga problems" niya. haha, s/he's letting go it, kuno. haha. i forgot where i got this info, some Psych talk, i guess. anyway, haha, sabi nila muka daw akong tomboy ULIT. hindi kayaaaaa. pictures soon ;) take care!

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